Hello Pete7!
Nope…you are not alone at all. It takes a lot of time, emotions and brains to manage this condition. Someone asked earlier if you can take a “holiday.” Well, in a manner of speaking, that is what we (you included) are fighting for.
You are fighting for that day in the near future when things will be easier and it will feel like a holiday. Science and technology have helped…no, not cured, but help nonetheless. Perhaps two (2) decades ago it was nearly impossible for Diabetics to travel abroad. We can do that now: https://forum.tudiabetes.org/t/long-term-travel-and-insulin-effectiveness
In the meantime, if you do not want to talk to your own doctor(s) about how you feel, how about a hobby. (Thanks Wheelman!) Suggestions for something not physically taxing: reading, cooking, taking in a good movie or a series on t.v. (no snaking tho).