whut up some of u seem to be so happy what the hell is that all about this ■■■■ sucks im done ■■■■ it life sucked befor i got this and now it is even worse so im done im gonna do what i want smoke,drink,drugs,fight treat everyone the way i feel ■■■■■■ up so if u see watch it pure evil is on the lose nothing can stop me know death hear i come
You are right, having diabetes does suck.
but you know what? I cant change the fact that I have diabetes, theres no way to get my pancreas to produce insulin again. So instead of being self destructive I turn my attitude around. Yeah Im diabetic and yeah times suck sometime and I worry and whatnot, but Im a stronger person for going through this and dealing with this and really, Im probably a lot healthier than my peers and that is something to be proud of.
You have the right to feel the way you want but honestly, the language is a bit inappropriate. Theres kids under 18 here that read these posts.
Im here if you need someone to talk to. I was in denial for… oh yeah my entire life until just a few years ago.
I agree with Sarah, the language is inappropriate. You are right it sucks but it will also suck to smoke, drink, do drugs, and fight everyone. You should not choose death because of Diabetes. Life is what you make it with or without Diabetes. You are also right, most of us with D are really happy.
I can completely understand the anger…you can use it to beat the disease. I am sorry you feel defeated, a lot of us here can help you.
Z Money,
While you are alive, you can change things. Please stay with us, man… don’t let diabetes get the best of you. You are alive, man and THAT is a big deal!
We are here for you…
wow, what language! Choices should come to mind. I work with people who are dying of cancer. I do think if they have a choice between cancer and diabetes you bet your ■■■ they would choose diabetes. So on that note, stay positve and yes fighting mode because you will need it. Can you inmagine a baby going through this.
Time to be really blunt and honest—
I used to be just as angry as you. I used to do drugs and drink and do things that I wont even mention here. I hated being diabetic. Then I landed myself in the hospital… 5 times DKA in 1 month. I gained 100lbs. I was 1 semester away from being thrown out of a very liberal school- they give you 3 semesters to pull your gpa up to a 2.0, I was at a 1.1, thats a whole other story.
Instead of using my anger for good I was destroying my life. I was destroying the lives of those around me. I was killing myself in the most slow and painful process that I could find. Its not worth it. If I could go back in time and redo everything I would. I lost a lot of friends, but thats only because they were scared and tired of watching me kill myself and not take their advice to get help. I ruined my gpa- I can’t get hired into my field without a 3.0… im getting 3.6 every semester and Im still at a 2.27… and this is after I already graduated and im going back to try to improve that… waste of money, totally preventable.
I may not know what you personally are going through, but I’ve been down that path. Diabetic since I was 11, destroyed my life by 18, continued to destroy everything around me until I was 22. Im only 24. Its amazing how such a condition can cause so much pain and anger and the consequences of your actions can have such an effect on your life and continue to do so.
Do you have any hobbies? Why dont you turn the pain and anger into your hobby and make it diabetes related and post it here or twitter or youtube, or etc.? Find some way to turn this heat and intensity within you into something positive, something that expresses what you feel in a productive way. Im sure people who know how you feel will join your movement you start… you seem like a powerful determined guy.
and if you really want to beat the crap out of something, like I did when I went through alcohol withdrawls and intensive blood sugar control AT THE SAME TIME, join a local MMA group/gym or jiu jitsu. They will teach you how to fight right and the endorphines from the exercise might improve your mood and you might also get better bg control
Sarah, that is so well said… I am so moved by your strength, and your courage to face your life, learn from it, and give yourself a chance.
It is not easy being young, your life ahead of you, and having to deal with the stresses of rebelling against the world, and Diabetes… This is really one hell of a disease. I know Z Money’s language could be better, but I know how it is when we’re down into a bad spiral, and giving up on ourselves… We’re just not rational, and we lash out at what we can. I hope we can look past this, and reach out to him, as you have done so excellently… I am proud of you for sharing your story, and being so strong.
Z Money, it’s okay to feel like crap. I know a lot of people are naturally chipper, but don’t let ANYONE make you feel guilty for not feeling happy, right now, or telling you that Diabetes is no big deal because so many people have it worse. I hate those crap comments. We all have the right to feel how we feel… The key is being strong enough to take all those emotions, face them, and LEARN something from them… I really, really hope that today you have the courage to take at least one of these suggestions Sarah has given you, or some of our other members, and put it into practice…
Don’t give up. 
Who here hasn’t gone through (or is still going through) anger? Anger at ourselves–what did I do to bring this on? Anger at others–not fair that other people are healthy & I’m not. Anger in general. Hard to know what to do with all that anger. Turning it on yourself or others won’t make it any better, I promise. Anger has a way of feeding on itself & becoming more of a monster.
Yea, it sucks big time. You can wallow in it, let it drag you down, or not.
Vent here. You’re among friends who know how you feel.
And what can I say ??? …almost 70years of age …a war baby to be more precise and a fighter …" here I come " …( same wording you used …and much more space to allow to live…another story ) !!!
I made it this far .
You have a choice to " get off it " …just like I did .
By the way …English second language here …I had to " study " your wording in this Discussion " …be well .
don’t let it own you, you own it. WE are all there, don’t think. your the only one not happy. I know i’m not happy and when i don’t take my medicine i even feel worse, i can’t let it consume me.
That’s the most insensitive thing I’ve ever heard. My mother used to say, "if you can’t say anything nice(in this case constructive), don’t say anything at all. Z-money, this a hard fight; fight like hell with the rest of us, ok? Peace, Virgil
The cards that all of us here were dealt stink and I think we all know it. What appears to be happiness could be a coping mechanism to get people from one day to the next. Deep down inside we all know we lost something but we all have reasons to keep going. I know I lost a lot of things and people around me when I was first diagnosed because I was always angry and those that remain I realized were the true friends around me.
As hard as you push here one thing i hope you will realize is that all of us here are held together by a common thread. Even at your worst times I think people will at least take the time to listen to what you have to say even if its not something happy and nice because we all probably have lost our way at one point. Out there in the world we have to put on our face to those around us but we all walk in some kind of fear. I live in the corporate world but I am always thinking that something bad is going to happen at work. A low or a high but again I have to play the cards but at least I know i can come here and see what other people like me are doing to cope.
dude take care of yourself
Z money. I’ve been T1 D for 27 years. You have great potential because of your passion; don’t waste it, man. We’re all here for you. Hang in there.
Z Money,
Ho;d on we’ve all veen where your at and sometimes we go back there! You will get better just HOLD ON!!! If you want to talk come on over to my page!
Please don’t say things to make people feel guilty at their anger from dealing with Diabetes, because they’re not on their death bed right now, with “something worse.” While his language is not the best, it is NOT okay to pretend we need to feel good all the time, and not allow ourselves permission to be upset or grieve. Just when is it an acceptable time to start getting angry? When, and only when we get cancer? Or AIDS? My father died a horrible, slow, and painful death, due to his Diabetes… I doubt that was much better than Cancer.
Life is hard then you die but it is the only life we have and will get so might as well be a cheerful as possible.
One’s philosophy leads to one’s attitude which leads to ones actions. I understand you completely.
To me, life is all about this:
…“When one doesn’t even have a dime to spare, do they really have nothing left to spare?”.
Have YOU NO MORE TO GIVE ??
Stick with us man.
To Tom:
Umm…Or not! How 'bout a little compassion?! People have a hard time, all the time.
To Z Money- don’t do whatever you want to yourself! Do whatever you can to turn your attitude around. All of us who are “happy” have had times we were just as angry. At some point, your attitude will change. You have a part in that. At least here, you have a place you can rant (maybe with a tad less swearing) and you can get some great advice. Hang in there. A lot of the time I “fake it 'til I feel it”. It works.
Z Money.
I have to say well done for saying it out loud getting ppl to read and comment on your discussion even though I would not have used the same sort of language I do say let it out and express it because if you dont your just going to end up far worse.
I have to be happy and make the most of what I have you might have chosen to go this evil way but who will it help,will anyone remember you for being a nice person even though your diabetic nope you will hear that diabetic was evil when really its the diabetes thats evil.
Let it out on paper but dont do anything silly to anyone else,diabetes is hard and rememeber there are a lot of young ppl on here and if they see this post how would they feel?
sorry for your troubles Z. living w/ diabetes sucks but it’s a lot better than the alternative. Death truly sucks