Been and am going some rough times, probably the worst times of my life. Feels like I’m sinking into a depression, and I just don’t see much light in the tunnel right now. For the past 3 weeks I’ve been unable to work due all this. I’m crying a lot, barely eating and have severe difficulties sleeping. I am however planning to start working again tomorrow. Hopefully getting an everyday again can make me focus better.
Bg wise I’ve been on bit of a roller coaster for being me. In early September I had a new all time low, beating an old record from 2005! My new lowest is 3.3 or 59, so it’s really no wonder I felt I could barely stay awake on the train home.
Highs I’ve been having too. Or what about 8.7 about 3-4 hours after dinner and not getting below 7 for 5-6 hours! Sure, I had a bit more carbs than I should have had, but the fact remains: If my body was functioning as it should, not even a dinner like that should keep me up for so long!
What causes all this? Well, I’m not really ready to shout it out in public, but if you want to know, do PM me.
Jennie, I have much to share with you about depression. I have requested to be your friend, and as soon as that comes through we’ll talk okay? Hang in there, it does get better…at times, we have to take depression or “the blues” by the tail and work on it.
Depression is nasty, I wish you all the best with that. I wouldn’t feel bad about your ‘highs’, those are actually my goal readings. Most of the time I can’t get lower than 12, and a high for me ranges from 15-32. Surprisingly I do a lot to try to prevent this, I take the right amounts, count carbs, test about 17 times a day, but I have hormone resistance, where I’ll take insulin and it just…dissapears. Anyways…my point is, your readings are fine in my eyes. Remember, normal people spike after meals too. I’ve done tests on several people with normal insulin, and find their regular readings range anywhere from 4.0 to 7.0 pre-meal! And that’s not counting spikes
Hugs my friend Jen…please please try and take care of yourself. There can be so many hurdles in life…but these are temporary. It is your health that counts most. With strength in your body…you can face these challenges better.
Jennie, I hope you feel better soon. Dont let the blood sugars upset you. Its a vicious circle, stress can cause them to fluctuate too. Anyway, they seem ok to me! Daily I experience lows of between 2.3 - 2.8 but my all time low came up as LO on the machine which I think means it was less than 1.7!! Have you spoken to your endo? Is there a diabetes centre that you could make an appointment in? The nurses are so lovely and I am sure that once you feel better about your diabetes that that will give you more time to think about whatever it is that is upsetting you.
The thing is: I’m NOT diagnosed, but my numbers just shows something is going on, in the USA a doctor would likely consider me a pre-diabetic, here the doctors don’t do a thing because the one test they take doesn’t show the reality, an OGGT would show quite some action, but that test I haven’t had done- yet anyways. I take no medication at all, and still my levels have its own life. I feel the highs and the lows quite clearly. And lately I’ve been staying high for much longer than before.
Mood wise, I just don’t see much light at all. Three weeks ago when all this started I even thought about suicide because I felt so bad, but decided to live on for my family, my friends and my lovely cat! I barely smile at all these days, I haven’t really been laughing either in the past few weeks. I’m more likely to cry than laugh at the moment
Top it off with my boss not following our agreement regarding my schedule after I came back to work. My boss and I had an agreement that I start with working 6h shifts for 2 weeks when I came back (I started work again yesterday), and my doctor had signed that agreement too and saying he’d rather see me work 6h shifts for a month. Well, already yesterday my boss “forced” me to do a full 8h shift! Feels like he doesn’t care if I’ll risk being away full time again, I’m even considering to call my doctor about this.
I know my boss is being under a lot of pressure, and I have been away for a period earlier this year. But when I am on sick leave, it’s not something I choose. Sometimes you just have no choice but to listen to your body!
I’m totally lost. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what will happen if I call my doctor about all this. What if my doctor say I should stay at home for longer? May that even mean I’ll lose my job?
The wall is reached, I smashed into it in full speed. I was happy until three weeks ago and then WHAM something in my life took a nasty turn and there was the wall taking all the happiness away in only a few minutes. Words of someone who may well be on the way to become burnt out? Yeah, maybe…
Mike, I work in a medical supply warehouse. I’ve been working there for little more than 3 years in total now, out of which almost 2 years as a full time employee. I like my job a lot! And even though it’s a physical, non academic job, it feels very important as I do work for the biggest medical supply warehouse in the country. I’m pretty good at what I’m doing too thanks to my sharp eye for details and interest and knowledge about the items I send out to customers.
My problems now are emotional, but not work related. I may eventually look for a new job, but right now I’m happy where I am work wise. But I’m pretty sure I won’t be working in the same place until I retire
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