Some days you wish you had stayed in bed this is such a day, have a feeling of heaviness over my eyes really feeling sorry for myself no idea why, the wife had to go and have a final check on her foot which she broke 2 years ago, the specialist told her it is probably as good as it ever will be.
When you are 20 or 30 or even 40 these things heal and do not cause you much gripe but at 63 it is a totally differnet thing bones take longer to heal and if you are diabetic they seem to take forever, it was a long train journey to see the specialist,car train taxi the same coming back and when we got home some 5 houes later we were both cream crackered.
We had our tea then retired to bed at 6pm it is much warmer upstairs so we would rather sit in bed warm as toast than sit downstairs trying to avoid the draughts, not that both of us would rather be somewhere warm with clear blue water lapping at our feet but that is never going to happen in our lifetime.
I finally went to sleep about 10pm had to get up 3 times during the night for a wee so this breaks up your sleep patern a lot I got up at 6am it was very cold and icy outside good frost during the night it was then I realised how down in he dumps I felt no reason just a feeling which I have been trying to shift all day long.
sat at the kitchen table sorting out 3 weeks of medication 13 pills a day 273 pills into morning and evening dosages from asprin to beta blockers it struck me I am a walking chemist no wonder I rattle as I move about with all these pills in my tummy this is not counting 2 lots of insulin and a dosage of victoza every day.
Listening to 60s hits I think the music is making me feel even lower than I do, turned the musci off if you can call it that mockingbird hill that sort of thing, as a 60s child myself usually enjoy music from that era but really down at hte moment.
Perhaps I need dinned like the cat she is cleaning herself right now not a care in the world wish I could change places with her, no more bills worries out chasing mice what a life hope next time I blog this feeling has well and truly gone.