So I saw my endo today. Wow.
Basically, he's putting me on Metformin XR, but he wants to see what my blood results show first. He did, however, say that I should take one over the weekend and eat whatever I want and watch what happens. (I understand that if I'm actually put on it then I will NOT be eating everything I want, just more normally than I have the past few months. I think he just wants to see if it works well.)
He said the phrase "insulin resistant" to me for the first time ever. I don't know whether to be thrilled that I have something to call it or upset because I've worked so hard to keep myself from getting to this point. I'm also a little confused, because even after my 12-pound weight loss, my blood sugar control isn't any better. I actually think it's worse.
He congratulated me on being the lowest weight I've been at since I started seeing him (4 years), he told me I look great. I told him it came from starving myself. He asked me how my energy level is, and I told him that it depends. I don't, however, think that that's caused by blood sugar or food--I have other health issues that aren't being dealt with because no one knows what they are.
I'll know more when I get the results back sometime next week. I'm expecting a normal A1c, normal BG, and high c-peptide just like last time. (Maybe a lower c-peptide, since I only started coming back high after I gained 10 pounds during the summer for no reason.) He doesn't really like to put people on meds, but I told him that at this point I'm hardly eating anything and when I do eat I feel sick for the rest of the day from the high. I've fallen asleep in two classes this semester because of highs.
I'll keep you guys updated. Any encouragement about how IR isn't my fault would be greatly appreciated. (Intellectually, I know it can't be my fault because I know I eat well. However, society's views and all that...)