Earlier today as I was staring obsessively at my glucose logs, I was wondering about my progress. Is it getting better? I can’t even tell. My numbers today have been as follows:
11 AM - 246 (Fasting)
7 PM - 325
8 PM - 287
10 PM- 285 (1 Hour After Dinner)
11 PM - 285
See I know that fasting sugar is unbelievably bad, but in all honesty it’s my lowest one yet this week. My fasting sugars HAVE definitely been going down, slowly but surely.
The 325 was deeply alarming, because I think it was caused by my power nap. Even so, the two 285’s were even more alarming. I double checked that one. How often does it happen that you get the same blood sugar twice? I can’t even tell if that’s good or bad.
I’m not actually looking for feedback about the numbers exactly, although today has been incredibly weird. I’m willing to bet it’s because I recently (as in yesterday) started drinking Sugar Controller Herb Tea. I had to have a mini-argument with my grandma before she would let me drink it. She would say, “You can’t take this with the Metformin. It will bring your sugar down too much!” to which I would reply with “Yeah that’s what I’m aiming for!” My logic is the tea isn’t nearly magical enough to throw me down into a hypo overnight, and I’m getting desperate for some results. Even if I do go hypo overnight, it’s not like I have issues bringing my glucose up. Hyuk hyuk. It appears to be doing…something. I figure I’ll keep with it for another day or so to see what it does and I’ve told my mom to keep an eye out for that lovely drunken behavior associated with a low. I act ridiculous and disoriented, so it shouldn’t be too hard for her to spot.
I’m getting a little off track here. When people tell me the Metformin takes a while to kick in, I imagine it as I’ll suddenly wake up one day and my sugar will have dramatically lowered to normal levels. This is what most people would call wishful thinking. I’m sure they mean it as a gradual change, and I am indeed seeing a very…very slow gradual change. But is it supposed to be THIS slow? I’m getting a bit impatient here. Around the forums I’ll see people say things like, “I’ve been having highs of 130…” and all I can think is, “You lucky jerk…” I think when my glucose finally goes below 200 I will just break down and cry like a little girl. Forget getting it down to normal levels. I’m just getting sick of this 200-300 loop I’ve been stuck in.
I have an appointment with an endo in two weeks. Thank god. By then I’ll have some logs to show him and I’ll have been taking Metformin for a month I believe. I like to think I’d have made some progress by then, so I won’t have to deal with him giving me that ‘Shame on You’ look doctors like to give when they see how high my sugar gets. Trust me docs, I’m doing the best I can here.