I have made up my mind

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being as stubborn as i am , thinking i’m doing quite fine on one needle… i still get random highs once and a while, i pretty much eat like a bird… minus the worms… I have a grueling exercise routine and at one point almost worked myself into anorexia because of a fear of the feeling i get when i get high blood sugars.
so…
after alot of thought, debating and growing up I thought i’d stop being vein, and stubborn and get the pump.
I have an appointment with my endo next week… I really am tired of food deprivation, I’m tired of diabetes being on my mind every minute of the day, i’m tired of going out for dinner with my boyfriend and ordering a bowl of lettuce because it’s past my supper time… i’m tired of everyone who doesnt know i have diabetes thinking i have an eating disorder… My mother said to me on the phone last night, Jill you may have diabetes but diabetes is not you. And I realize its true… my a1c may be pretty good… but i worked so damn hard to get it there… because of that I am not living.

I will no longer eat like a starving victoria beckham all because of my blood sugars!
I think i will finally give into the pump.

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and remember you can always go back to shots if you don’t like the pump, although not many people do. We’re her for you when you’re ready for your first days/weeks - actually, we are here for you no matter what!

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congrats on the epiphany! it took me a while to figure out diabetes does not own me or define who i am…it’s a part of me. best of luck on your new journey =)

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I am on the same page as you and am going to take charge of the “D” in my life and am pretty sure its starting with moving to the pump!? Some where along the way they changed the rules along the way and and I wasn’t called to the meeting… silly me :frowning: … How ever the start of another chapter…