I don’t know if it’s the holiday’s getting to me, or just plain tired of dealing with all the crap associated with being a diabetic…having to test at odd times, making sure to carrying enough supplies and back-up supplies…making sure to have something to treat the lows and having extra insulin to help with the highs…I am just so tired and frustrated with every part of diabetes…I HATE BEING A DIABETIC!!!
I would love just to wake up one morning and not have to check my pump and make sure that my sensor is working, see if I will have to change my pump at any time of the day…I use to carry a little “book” bag to carry my testing supplies and snacks, now I use two “shoebox” size rubbermade containers to carry just my meds and testing supplies…the other container has my pump supplies…and I always make sure it’s stocked with enough supplies for about 5 days…I can go through infusion sets in about a week…I will put them in a spot and forget it’s there (like my upper thigh by hip) and will pull it out when pulling my pants down to go potty…I have done that about 4 times within 2 days…
Does anyone else feel lke this at all? Or am I just alone and not able to deal with my life that I have been handed?
Any suggestions? Advice?
Thanks for letting me vent