Here’s my story. Jeff and I have been dating since the summer before my last year of high school. I’m now 24, and we are still together. (So it’s been about seven years now.) The fourth year into our relationship he was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes.
Our relationship from the get go was amazing. We giggled like two best childhood friends and wanted nothing but to see and be with each other always. Truely in love. However, since diabetes has come into the picture, things have gone a little stale.
Jeff often feels overwhelmed by life. He worries a lot, and I can see he is frustrated with himself, me, and life in general. He gets very angry now, he throws objects at the ground and slams his hands on his desk. He is an incredibly gentle person, so this is out of character for him.
When I ask him if he is high or low, he abruptly shouts, NO. Sometimes his mood swings are unbearable.
I’m completely in love with this man, when diabetes hasn’t overtaken his beautiful personality… when I have my Jeffy back… I am relieved, and know that the angry, depressed person isn’t really who he is.
However, I am frustrated. …What can I do for him? His depression, I talk him through it and give him suggestions and try to cheer him up. But I feel like he needs something more.
Is there anyone else out there who knows what I mean? Feels my situation? What about a resource for a devoted girlfriend? Am I ignorant to his situation? His needs? What can I do for him?
I want to be there for him. I am scared for him.
Sometimes when he is sleeping so still, I panic, and I quickly touch him to make sure he is alright. I worry about his diabetes suddenly taking him away from me, and I worry about his depression causing him to think irrationally, causing him to make a poor decision.
Please, is there anyone out there that can give me some advice about coping with diabetes/depression… any resource out there for people like me to talk?
Thanks. I needed to get this out.