Basically every night after being diagnosed, I’m unleashed into a world of frenzy and fear and morning after morning I awake “in” my dream.
Last night, it was the worst so far.
It was a series of seven or eight nightmares that I couldn’t get out of. It was about some girl. She couldn’t wear a certain pair of boots, green, lime green, boots. And when she did, my dream turned. It was basically sideways, but I could see it. And it was in colored pencil, a beautiful drawing, but it was of just the girl’s eyes- terrified, petrified, eyes. They were outlined in lime green and in black all around. I couldn’t get out of it and I was looking at this drawing. I was scared and scared and so scared. I woke up briefly and tried to down a little bit of juice because I was confused, but I couldn’t get much of that (disgusting at 12am!) I went back to sleep and the next stage of it was in a black theatre- pitch black. I was terrified and so scared and I couldn’t get out of it. I woke up and just replayed the first dream over and over again.
I got to stay home from school for two hours to rest and just sleep NORMALLY. But it sucked. And I can’t wait for tonight.
You’ve just been shoved into a weird world…the world of diabetes. It has changed your life from what you knew to this point. Give yourself a chance to settle down and get used to the idea. You may even want to discuss these dreams with your mother or a counselor. The sooner you get to the meaning behind them, the better you will feel. And I feel that it is all because of your recent diagnosis. Not that I’m a psychologist or psychiatrist or anything fancy, but it would take a moron not to get the connection between the two!!
Talk, talk, talk. That’s the best medicine for a lot of what is ailing us. You see, I feel that diabetes is not just a disease of the body, but of the emotions as well. It will eat you alive unless you accept its exisence and then take charge. Any normal person would go through bad dreams at first but you’re not normal, are you? I sense a strong spirit and mind. With a little guidance from those around you, including your parents, DR, nurse educator, reading, hsopital programs, you will become a strong warrior in your own care. I know this sounds kind of weird, but those are some of the steps I went through in the 20+ years since my diagnosis.
And sometimes you will slip. But ask for help and you will get it. Besides, we’re here for you. If there is one thing I know, someone somewhere has aready gone through it or is going through it and all you have to do is ask for advice. That someone will be able to reach out to you.
Welcome to this site. I hope that all your dreams will be pleasant in the future.
If I have a nightmare, or just a very vivid dream at night, I always check my blood, even though it’s a pain to get out of bed and do it. Nightmares usually mean my blood sugar is low…
anyway, welcome here, Sloane! I see many of our wonderful family members have stopped by to tell you “hi”. We take care of each other here, and we will be looking after you too.
