Christmas and a new year are closing up.
Wishes… or what if…
What would be the first 3 things I would do if I would get totally cured from my diabetes?
I would:
1) I would drink a regular coke, just to feel what it feels like, when my own body fixes the BG just like it should. Do I feel anything physically? And if I feel, how would it be different compared to trying to do it oneself by pumping/injecting insulin? If I would feel tiredness, nausea, heart beating etc, would it be the same way it was by doing the whole job by oneself? Or would I just smile and think; Wow!
2) I have been travelling a lot in my life, just for the fun and to get the touch of different cultures etc. Therefore I would book (again) a trip to some kind of a remote area and at least for 3 weeks. Just to get the feeling how it feels like, NOT HAVING to pack all those things I need to bring with me and the WHAT-IF-PACKAGE. Just to get the feeling of what it feels to think: Passport and money. Not INSULIN AND ALL OTHER RELATED TO IT and then passport and money. Yes, I would do it with a smile and think; this is fantastic, the hand-luggage is smaller. A lot. Wow! And at the destination, just grab my camera and money, not…
3) Run the nearest available city-marathon without ANY KIND of belt bag, just drink and eat from the stations that are offered for the physical feeling, not because my BG requires it or similar. Not think anything, just race and feel the sense of only the race.
I would not have any empty feelings of missing anything. Just feel the sense of being free.
I put a lot of time and effort in understanding the behavior of the insulin, kind of food and how the BG is being affected. So today I raised the question: If I would not have diabetes, in what other area would I have used the time I’m using for analyzing my diabetes?
We had an after-work with my colleagues. Because of different reasons we ended up in the discussion of how connected we are to our smart-phones and what they do to us.
Since our parent-company lies in a time-zone that is lying behind ours, some of my colleagues are getting emails during the nights. So when my colleagues wake up in middle of night for a visit into the bathroom, they grab their smart phones in order to check, if they received any emails. That’s also the first thing they do in the morning when they wake up, they check their emails.
My immediate reaction to that was;
”What! Sounds like you have diabetes since I’m checking my BG, not my smart-phone. The first thing I think about in the morning is what my BG is….”
My manager replied the same that was going through my mind: “Yeah, the funny thing is that you kind of don’t have any option, but checking the smart-phone is and that’s sick…”
But If I would not have diabetes, how would my live be different? Because diabetes is there hour by hour, minute by minute, second by second and at work and at my free time I’m always on line, when it comes to Diabetes.
Am I putting too much time in my Diabetes?
If I’m thinking of all the results I’ve been achieving in terms of health due to lowering my HA1bc, the answer is clearly, NO.