I’m so upset right now that I’m here to vent so forgive me in advance! I was diagnosed T1d 5 months ago and my husband knows next to nothing about my disease.
I had one low (46) and he asked if I wanted him to bring me some insulin. “Uh, that would kill me but thanks anyway”
This last week my anxiety has been thru the roof. I’ve never had anxiety before other than 1 medication induced episode 13 years ago. I’ve been taking cipro for a UTI and it might have caused the anxiety or it could be that I’m turning 50 in a month and the realization of my disease is settling in and my family is rather clueless. The jury is still out on the cause.
So, for the ranting… I was just woken up by my CGM alarm. I went to the kitchen, ate and returned to bed. The alarm went off again with an urgent low of 63 with a downward trend. So in less than 10 minutes it dropped 16 points. I asked my husband (who was awake) to please go back downstairs for some quick sugar. HE REFUSED!! Said if I needed something I should get it myself that it’s not his responsibility. Wth?! I am a very even tempered person and I flipped out on him (low sugar,anyone?!) Classic sign but he wouldn’t know it.
I’m just so frustrated and angry. And alone. (I have 4 kids…2 in college and 13 year old twins. My 78 year old mom texts me when I’m low…super sweet…but she slept they her alarm too.).
I’ve handled this disease without a single tear shed. No pity party. Just head on handling it like everything else in my life. I’m not a whiner but feel very worried. Any words of encouragement or do I need to learn to handle this solo? Do you keep sugar in bedroom? I usually leave my bag downstairs. Hmmm.