I just got in from a brisk exer-walk. You’d think I’d be feeling great! But no, instead I’m feeling blue.
I’ve had more difficulties with depression the last couple of weeks. Not sure what is making it happen.
Anyone out there with a kind word?
Jan
Some days are good and some days are bad, but I am sure that you have someone in your life that when they see you, a smile appears in their face. Hope you feel better and remember tomorrow is a new day.
Thanks for the kind words, Patient. The problem is that most of the people you describe aren’t local to me. 
In any case, I’ll try to keep what you said in mind, and agree that I’ll probably feel better in the morning.
Thanks!
Jan
Sally, you really are Super indeed. This was such a sweet message.
I’m going to keep your “Cyber Hugs and a Caring smile” on my screen tonight, and come back to look at it when I need.
Back at ya, my friend. 
Jan
Did yr bg go down on yr walk? Sometimes to me hypo= down
((((hugs))))
You mean you get depressed when you’re hypo? Interesting – I woke up at 67 this morning, very low for me.
My doc told me to try a snack before I exercise. So (under his instructions) I had a quarter apple and tablespoon nut butter before I went out. It seems to have worked well, since my BG only dropped two points (124 to 122). I’ve been pretty even all day. Just think it’s due to my broken self esteem right now…
Thanks for checking in.
Thank you, Jean!! I can feel it…
We can never get enough hugs in the day. I appreciate your sending some along.
Jan
Jan-
Hoping you’re feeling better tonight.
Depression is the WORST. But good friends (even the cyber kind) with kind & encouraging words are the BEST! I know you’ll find lots of them here at tudiabetes, I sure have!
Some of my favorite words of comfort given to me when I’ve been struggling with depression are “This, too, shall pass.” and “We can do hard things!”
Hang in there! We’re all here, on your team, cheering you on!
Erin – this was so nice! Yes, your cyber-words do indeed help me feel better.
Some of MY favorite words of comfort include, “Jan, would you like a bowl of this zero-carb, zero-calorie ice cream?” and also, “Jan, I’ve got this extra $1M that I don’t know what to do with. Can you take it off my hands?”
But baring those, your last sentence was great to hear.
Jan
“Jan, I’ve got this extra $1M that I don’t know what to do with. Can you take it off my hands?” (giggle). I Love the words that you use to comfort yourself. I’ll have to try that when I’m feeling a bit sad. Life has a way of bringing us down sometimes alright. I hope that you’ll be up and running again soon. (((BIG HUGS))) from me too Jan.
Oh poor you! I know the feeling. I am just coming out of a severe depression - could not eat, could not test or do anything in the house, could not be bothered to do anything…
Are you taking medication for the depression? How are you bgs? Both depression and diabetes (I call it the double ds) can make you feel lousy on their own, and you and I both have a double whammy!
I cannot offer advice as I do not know your circumstances, but all I would say is to be kind to yourself and try to break down tasks in to bite size chunks and congratulate yourself for doing something and completing it. Give yourself a break. Go out for a bit, come back, have a rest. Start again.
Do you have friends you could hang out with who understand your depression? Perhaps meet for coffee or something. I know with me, if I were to stay at home and look at all the things that should be done I would just vegetate - and get more depressed because I cannot motivate myself to get on and do something and it just gets worse.
Plan little treats for yourself - like getting on a bus and going to a different part of town or something.
It is impossible to do things some days, but remember that tomorrow might be better. You will get better.
From one depressed person to another. Sending warm hugs and love!
Yep, hypos can make you depressed - you sort of think “Oh **** not again!” It is not so much the hypo - though that in itself is a bummer, it usually happens to me at the most inconvenient times! I like the treatment, but I hate the resulting highs. I just want to curl up and go to sleep!
Terrie, I love the way you made your BIG HUGS even bigger. I have to remember to do that next time I’m sending affection through cyberspace.
Thanks for your thoughts. Your message brought a smile to my face.
(((BIG HUGS))),
Jan
Oh, Latvianchick, this was so nice. It’s wonderful to find a kindred spirit.
I’ve had clinical depression my entire life, and diabetes only three months. So it’s anyone’s guess if my current depression is related. But my self esteem right now is so low, I’d need a step stool to reach a gnat’s knees! It’s about as bad as it’s been.
I’ve been taking meds for depression a little over 20 years. Right now my BGs are pretty darn good, considering how new I am.
> if I were to stay at home and look at all the things that should be done I would just vegetate - and get more depressed because I cannot motivate myself to get on and do something…
You sure hit the nail on the head! That’s me, and this week, my goal is start finding more things to do outside the house, and away from the computer.
Please accept a carton full of warm hugs and love back. Your thoughts were much appreciated.
Jan
You have been given lots of good advice here. A snippet from me, put some music on, some calming soothing music to even out the brain patterns. Helps me heaps when I get a blue day
Hugs, Maureen
Like you, I’ve had major depressive disorder for far longer than I’ve had diabetes, but diabetes just makes it worse. I have no great words of wisdom, except that you have to keep putting one foot in front of the other, and take things in small bites – don’t try to do anything that will overwhelm you. Congratulate yourself on the small things. And reach out to other people, as you have on here. Your friends really do care about you, whether you feel you are worth it or not. They probably see you more realistically than you see yourself right now. And don’t criticize yourself – the criticism comes from the little voices in your head that are LYING to you. Tell them to shut up!! You are a wonderful person, and the world needs you!
Keep on talking to us and let us know how you are doing!
Hugs,
Natalie ._c-
Great idea, Maureen. I stopped listening to music recently because shortly after my diagnosis, I became super-ultra-sensitive to noise. But I’m sure that some calming music would help.
(And I know just the one: “Healing Touch” by Nadama. My favorite CD on the planet.)
Thanks!
Jan
Natalie, all I can say is … awwwww! This was so nice.
Yes, I sometimes feel worthless, and yes, the critical voices in my head seem to never sleep or go on vacation. How do I know they’re lying when they have such convincing evidence?
When you say “diabetes makes it worse,” what do you mean exactly? Do you mean that having a disease that requires so much attention makes you more depressed, or that there truly is a chemical interaction between them that increases the depression?
Thanks for writing,
Jan
I get MAJOR blues when I’m low, even just a little low like 75. I feel just sort of blah and sad, and like I want to cry. Sometimes, I can make myself unsad when I check my BG and realize that I’m low (because then I know the low isn’t a “natural” low but one that results from diabetes). Of course, then I sometimes get sad about having diabetes…Anyway, I feel your pain if that means anything. I’ve been going through a lot of that lately.