Feeling blue :-(

The thing is, they DON’T have convincing evidence. It’s only convincing if you believe them. When my friends point out all the positive things I have done in my life, and how many people care about me, I have a hard time believing them, so why do I fall for the negative voices in my head so easily? That just doesn’t make sense. My friends and family who love me do not lie to me, so it must be the voices that are lying.

Diabetes makes it worse, because many people here have said that they feel bad when they are high or low. And I have never met a diabetic yet who is never high or low. Plus just the hassle that goes along with taking care of diabetes – not so much the pills or shots, but having to ALWAYS think about every morsel that goes into your mouth, and watching your weight, and all the doctor appointments, and fear of complications, etc.

And BG definitely does affect your brain chemistry – when I had a coma last year, my BG was over 600, and I was having terrifying hallucinations, plus blackouts and general confusion. A “more normal” BG shouldn’t take you THAT far, but it DOES affect the brain in more subtle ways. It’s just that it’s so very hard to control, that you just have to deal with where it takes you. Keep on working at it, because it’s a ■■■■■!

Kind of Blue?

Jan, a few days have passed and I hope the blues have lifted just a tad. I haven’t dealt with hard core depression for a very long time…but I do remember those days.

In the past few months I have made a big attempt at cutting down on screen time (tv, computer, etc) and increasing real live face time. Nothing huge or demanding…meeting a friend for lunch, making arrangements to go on a walk with a lady I know from church, dropping in on an elderly neighbor for a short visit. I just felt I needed to rebalance the way I reconnect with people (less facebook and more see your face!!). It’s been a good thing and I’ve enjoyed it.

I’m sending some warm, cozy vibes your way. I hope you can find one or two easy things that can make a difference.

And BG definitely does affect your brain chemistry – when I had a coma last year, my BG was over 600, and I was having terrifying hallucinations, plus blackouts and general confusion.

Could you please clarify this sentence Natalie?