I was diagnosed on New Years Eve and it hasn’t even been a month and I’m already fed up of this shiy disease! I try and stay as positive as I can and my day will be going great until I check my blood sugars which have been all over the place. They are hardly ever below ten. Last week they stayed in between 14 and 17 and this week they’ve only come down to 8 ONCE. it was 10 today after college. I took insulin and ate something and started exercise. When I was done, it was at 11. I’m so pied off! My mother is annoying the hell out of me. She’s refusing to read the diabetes booklet given by the nurse and she’s acting like she knows everything about diabetes. telling me what to eat and what not to eat. My sugar was really high earlier so I just told her to SHUT UP which I’ve never done before. She lectures me and then starts being supportive. today she said that my diabetes was caused by the amount of coke I drank (I only took a cup to bed ONCE). The nurse has explained that it wasnt causes by eating and she just won’t get it into her head! My dad started taking me to the gym and started taking me on walks but today he has suddenly stopped. I’m so confused I just wish this cr*ppy disease just died already! My insulin jabs are starting to hurt a little (I’m doing them correctly) and my finger pricks are becoming tiring. I haven’t had a low yet also. My arms and legs are sore from a workout I did last Friday at the gym. What can I do to help myself? My nurse is lovely! She calls every other day just to check and she gives me advice. I really do hate tis disease but I just stay positive. Today is a bad day I guess. I just feel like crying.
Oh man....I'm so sorry that you're having such a hard go of this. Diabetes is SO unpredictable.
You can balance and plan, and everything goes along just fine, then bang...for no reason the numbers are off. Could be a myriad of things....including hormones!
Though your mom isn't the one "blessed" with this condition....she too is overwhelmed at the moment. She feels responsible, as your mom! I avoid calling diabetes (or my asthma) a disease, because I don't perceive it as such. It's more of a "condition" in my mind. A disease makes me feel, well....ill. (just my view).
Your parents are very sad about your diabetes....they may even be blaming themselves, though they shouldn't....it's no one's fault. It's just life. Stuff happens. At the moment you, your mom, your dad....are all going through stages of grief. You are grieving your old life. Anger is one of those stages....so is denial. As well, the rate through which YOU travel through one stage of grief may not necessarily coincide with that of you mom or dad's journey.
I'm glad to read that you have a supportive nurse....and happy that you have found TuDiabetes. Support is PARAMOUNT! So....stick around kiddo....we want you here!
You mentioned that you have not had lows....still be prepared, just in case. Carry candies...glucose tabs...or some other fast acting/fast dissolving sugar. You never can tell! The reason why your bg went higher after you ate could be attributed to a variety of things, including not having had a balanced meal...having injected to much insulin...feeling unwell...who knows. But don't despair, keep at it....you're on the right track. It'll get better....FOR SURE!!
(The pic of the cat depicts how you probably feel just about now!! No...he's not missing an ear....it's bent back!!)
Aw thank you Linda for such a comforting and reassuring piece of advice. It is all I needed. I won’t be able to write much because I’m about to dose off to sleep but thank you very very much! And the car surely is me right now HAHA! I will read your comment again when I wake in the morning because right now I feel exhausted. You are lovely and so is this community. We shall speak again soon. Goodnight Linda. hugs X
I just caught this post. Man, I have been the parent of a T1 for almost a yearand I can only speak of my thoughts / fears with regards to my daughter (10 years old). I kept falling into the thought trap of "what in the world did she eat to get this way". Even as a nurse I would do that. They are probably still in shock at the diagnosis and blaming themselves for a large portion of it. Your thoughts and feelings are absolutely legit and I hope that things get better for you and your family. They willget better. The thing is like a part of your life has died and you / your parents have to grieve the passing. That is what helped us out. Again, I hope things have gotten better since you posted on here. Be good and travel well.
Just hang in there. This is easier said than done. When I first started on insulin I was a basket case. My blood sugars where in the high 200's. I thought once I took insulin it would be the quick fix. It was not. I am in agreement with Linda. One day the diabetes is fine. Next day for whatever reason the bs' are high. I hate when my bs's are high because I too feel tired. Not in a great mood and I am a pretty upbeat person. And ya know what it is ok to cry. Forget that society says men should not cry. MEN ARE HUMAN WITH HUMAN EMOTIONS. Mom needs to stop blaming you for having diabetes. It happens. We are not perfect human beings. I have found that the chat room is invaluable in sharing what you are going thru. There are many people on there who care about what you are going thru. Hopefully I will see ya there. Please be gentle with yourself. OK?
Hi, apologies for the late reply. I had so much going that I had literally forgotten about this website and had almost forgotten that I was diabetic, haha. Diabetes is now the least of my everyday concerns and I have so much love towards you guys for helping me. It was very hard to accept at first but I made it through and now, it most certainly is second nature to me. I am extremely grateful towards the help and support you have given me. I am going through a stressful period right now but I am certain I will be feeling fine in no time. Thank you very very much! :)
Iyaz Do not dispair. Unfortunately having Diabetes is not easy. I have been BLESSED with Diabetes for over 50 years and still fight the odd ball lows and highs. You get used to it. The longer you live with diabetes I think. you learn what you need to control your blood sugars. It sounds like mom and dad are just as upset as you are. They just don't know how to tell you. I went for many years not knowing my dad thought he was the cause of me having diabetes. Took a lot of time to tell him he was not at fault. There well be highs and lows in your life with diabetes but it IS a disease you can live with. There are worse ones. It sounds like you have a good resource with your nurse. TAKE IT SLOW! It takes time to learn the good and bad about your control. The last thing you want to do is to try and get under perfect control right away. It well lead to frustration. Talk to doctors,nurses,diabetes educators and other people with diabetes. You well learn how to Deal with it. I will tell you my control got a lot better after putting on an Insulin pump. I have only been pumping for about 10 years and love it.
I tell all new diabetics YOUR control is 99% you. the rest of it is your docs nurses educators and other resourses. It is very doable. STAY STRONG.
As I posted this I realized it. was a year late. My statement still stands.
I know how you feel. I've been a diabetic since I was a child. Apparently your dosage or insulin type needs to be adjusted. I used to have fits when my blood sugar was up but now I only get upset if bit gets really high. No One is perfect. I get into funks also and have problems with insurance. I find having a pet helps a lot because they love you unconditionally and pick up your spirit when you are down. I take my dog for a walk which helps blood sugar. My mother used to tell me I could do anything I want. We have a supreme court judge who has type 1 diabetes. I have a son and somewhat of a normal life. I also try to do something silly lie dancing around or listening to music that makes me laugh. I know its hard but you have to think I'm tuff. Humor will help. Hang in there.
You need to talk to me. I’ve had this type 1 crap nearly 50 years abd I’ve been through everything. I hope I can help you. I’m pretty sure I can
Linda where is the picture of the cat ?
I woke up today and remembered that I had written a post on this site. I am currently grieving due to the passing of a loved one. She was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis in January 2013, (the same time I was diagnosed with Type 1).
I am in deep thought today, having realised how long it’s been since my diagnosis and how far I’ve come. I’d just like to say a huge thank you to everyone who offered their advice. I still really appreciate you all. My diabetes isn’t in the best of control at the moment as I’ve been quite lazy and naughty with it but that’s the thing with diabetes…it’s never going to be perfect.
Early last year, I suffered a diabetic burnout due to prolonged stress. It was a very dark time for me but I managed to pull through. If any newly diagnosed diabetics are reading this, just know that IT DOES GET BETTER. It’s scary when you’re first told you are diabetic and you feel hopeless, like nothing will ever be the same. Of course, your life will be different but that is only from a health perspective. You WILL find your old self again and you WILL get used to it all. You’ll look back in a year’s time and wonder why you were so scared.
If there is anyone who would like to chat about anything, feel free to message me.
Condolences on the loss of your loved one.
You are right it does get better. We all believe that believe that our lives will be permanently damaged but it is not. We now have an intrusion into our life but we still have our life and there is nothing to say it can not be a good life.
I am sorry for your loss. My mother-in-law suffered and died with MS. It is a cruel disease.
I am glad that you are doing well.