I can’t deal with my diabetes anymore…that’s how I have been feeling for the past while.Unfortunaltly I have no choice I HAVE to deal with diabetes…hypos.hypers…and everything else in between!I am currently studying physiotherapy and its a very tough course…even tougher when you are feeling unwell and have fallen behind!My diabetes is so out of control if i’m not hyper I am hypo,I feel hungry at normal blood sugar levels so I overeat then I go hyper…my blood glucose takes ages to come down so I often end up giving too much insulin and suffer massive hypos followed by hyper…;-(and I feel so unwell the majority of the time.I just want a day where I feel well.That seems like too much for me to ask for…Perhaps I need to lower my expectations!I know I am going on a rant now but I didnt know who else to turn to!I have no quality of life right now and that cant be right!
College & Diabetes is not easy. No one ever said that it was. But take the time to go back to your diabetes basics. (And take a deep breath) I’ve found that simplifying (to the point of boring) my diet to figure out where the problem lies can help. Everyone is different though, but good luck!
I know how you feel. I wish you well and hope that things smooth out. Stress is a BIG pain in the %$#@^ when it comes to diabetes and blood sugars. Try to relax and pick a day to just start fresh. Allow yourself to be upset, and then move forward…you have to and you are worth it.
Thanks guys for your support it really helps!xx;-)
The world can be pretty ironic – I had a roommate in college with T1. Then 25 years later I was diagnosed with T1. Oh how I wish that I knew then what I know now about diabetes. I watched my roommate struggle and hide her disease. She didn’t explain anything to me, so I was confused by her mood swings (in hindsight I now realize she was not a very compliant diabetic). At least I knew enough to force juice into her when I would find her zoned out and sweating. I had no idea how pervasive the disease was into her entire life. I reflect on how awful she must have felt some days. I suspect she felt isolated, frustrated, and angry a lot of the time. But she never told me anything. The only way I even knew about the juice for the low was by calling the health center when it happened the first time. And even after she returned to a norman BG, she never discussed what happened. In fact, it was like discussion of diabetes was completely taboo. I was a non-diabetic then. I was completely uniformed. If I had known then what I know now – I would have been more compassionate and supportive. I would have been sensitive to her moods rather than frustrated by them. All in all – I would have been a better friend. I urge you to educate those closest to you at college about the disease and what that means about your life and your choices. I suspect many are like I was – just plain clueless. If you let people in to this part of who you are, I think you’ll be amazed at how much support you’ll find. And of course, we are all here too – this is a safe place to find extra support. Communicate your needs – it took me many years to learn that (about things other than diabetes). Remember–you have a whole family here that “gets it” and wants you to get past this bad time with the disease.