As some know, I recently had a scare. I will be 20 weeks pregnant on Monday, and had to go into the hospital because of some pretty intense cramps and some bleeding two days ago. To cut a long story short with this topic, I am home on strict bed rest until my next appointment. Not sure why I bled, but as of now our baby girl is doing okay. But on another note, my mom isn’t doing real good. She has had type one since she was 3, and now she’ll be 52 in January. Recently her body hasn’t been like accepting the insulin, having trouble keeping her blood sugars down. On top of it she has some heart problems. Recently she has been having problems with her vision, trouble feeling her feet and hands, and now her toe nails are turning black. She is going to a new specialist in Jan so hopefully they can try to fix this, if it’s even fixable anymore. Her current doctor has tried everything he said and doesn’t know what else there is to try. Needless to say she’s getting tired and worn. I’m a huge mommas girl and can’t stand the fact that she might not be around much for all the important things. The thought of losing her or losing my baby girl is seriously my biggest fear… Just asking for some prayers and advice. I’d be lying if I said I was okay… My husband is putting on a strong front, and I’m trying but…yeah. I am one that usually tries to act like their life is all put together, one that doesn’t like to ask/reach out. But this is a little too much for me to handle without reaching out. All prayers help, and I thank you in advance.
Here at tudiabetes we will all pray for you
I had whooping cough when I was pregnant with my third child & then some bleeding
Stayed in bed for 3 weeks
Then had a beautiful boy
I will hold you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Be kind to yourself through this and make time for major self care, whatever that looks like for you. Personally I find meditation really helpful (mindful, moment to moment awareness) but you may have other practices that speak to you.
I have no direct advice about your mom. My only thought is that this could be a great time for the two of you to start recording her stories (maybe in letters or writing, maybe audio recordings). This can be a long term project over the years for both of you to benefit from reflecting on the things she would like to share with you.
Sending big warm hugs to you.
One more thing... I just wanted to add, it's okay to not be okay. You are dealing with some very tough things right now and you will be up and down and all over the place. Try as much as you can to know the ups and downs are normal and not to beat yourself up for struggling.
Prayers ascending for you…gotta be strong little mama!
Prayers and Hugs MEK.
Thank you all for the prayers and positive thoughts. I appreciate them all and can’t thank you enough!
Sending healing prayers for your mom and sending an angel to cradle your little girl until she can see her mommy. Enjoy your time with her. Sing her a song, read to her or just talk to her. Will continue prayers for you all.