I am a T1 for about 15 years. I've just turned 31 and have started to worry obsessively about my poor choices in the past and fears of future complications. I've been lucky that except for my diabetes, I've been relatively healthy. My fear is I used to be a heavy drinker in college and cut back but still occassionally binged into my late 20s. I used to have fairly decent A1Cs but there was a lot of fluctuations in daily numbers. I recently had a scare with a relatively high A1C (I don't give numbers because people get too competitive). I'm just currently obsessing about complications due to past mistakes. Right now, I'm doing fairly well, but I guess that makes me only regret my past more. Does anyone else do the same? How do I stop this obsessing? I have a wife and kid and I don't want to die young or have serious complications anytime soon so I am doing my best. Did anyone ever experience this before? How did you overcome all the regrets from your youth? I have an eye doctor next week, I'm freaking out. Please help!