Some progress I think

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So, I've been making a concerted effort to eat less carbs and not under-bolus in fear anymore.
For the last several months, my blood sugars have run under 200 pretty consistently.
I am trying new ways to take/split up boluses so they don't hit me so hard, and really trying to listen to my body on when I am dropping fast or stuck in a holding pattern (My insurance won't cover a CGM so I have to guess)
I now usually wake up in my target range 110-130 and try not to eat things that I know will cause havoc later. I am trying to drink LOTS of water, because my insulin works immediately and like 500 times more efficiently as soon as I'm properly-hydrated.
I don't see my endo until July so I won't know for sure what my A1C looks like. But if I got a "9" I'd be ecstatic.

A typical coping strategy:

Devil on left shoulder - "Hi self. Doesn't that bread look delicious? Yeah. That one. The bakery bread with no nutrition label... Mmmmm."
Angel on the right - "Yeahhhh. It does look delicious. You know what WON'T be so pleasing though? The un-budging 400 bloodsugar and the weird flashing that happens in your bad eye when it's that high and the dehydrated feeling and nausea."

Ok that's all. Probably no one will read this, but I wanted to acknowledge my own achievements.

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Congratulations on your achievements! I've got the cousin of your Devil on my own left shoulder; could you please send me an angel for my right shoulder?

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Great job, Sagwabetes! I bet you will be surprised by a much better A1C than you expect if you are mostly under 200 (my meter average is usually 160+ but A1C is in the 6's for the past year and a half?). But I spent decades of my life with the kind of A1C's you mention on your profile page, too. I'm old now, but i was sort of bulimic when I was your age - the binging part at least (ate way more sugar that normal young people), and when I got totally po'd I would fast for long periods of time just for a vacation from the battlefield.
You've had horrible experiences with the abyss's at both ends of our teeter totter, it sounds like. Really really scary. You came through it and you are still in the game (too fun a word for what diabetes is). Glad you are still here and your efforts are gradually making the (f'ing) #'s better. I think you are really brave.

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Thank you, Trudy and Earthling :)

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I try to read everyone's blogs but I don't always comment. So, never think you are not heard because you are. I think it is great you have a coping strategy, sometimes mine gets lost.