I had another not so great eye appointment today with the retina specialist. Where I had the focal laser treatments done the leakage has calmed down, but other areas have gotten quite a bit worse, including in the center of my vision where laser is not an option. As a result, I have lost quite a bit more of my vision since my last appointment. Dr gave me a prescription for eye drops he said may slow it down, but is getting insurance stuff in line to start injections into the eye on my next visit in 6 weeks if the drops don't slow it down enough. He basically told me today that if I don't get my sugars in order, I am going to go blind. That's a tough pill to swallow at 25, and the sugars are an issue tied to anxiety that anyone who has read my past posts knows I have fought with unsuccessfully for a loooonnnnggg time.
I'm really at a loss for where to go from here. When I work towards better sugars and come across a slip up or give in to the anxiety, I wind up in a depressed state of oh well it is high now so why fight with it. Or I get into an attitude of tomorrow will be better, and tomorrow just never seems to come. I am sure I am fighting depression with all of this, but I feel like everyone I have brought it up with blows it off even when I try to explain what a big part of my poor self care I feel it is. I haven't seen any therapist or anyone for med management related to the anxiety or depression in a few months now because I feel like they either don't listen to me, don't understand what I am talking about related to the diabetes, or that they lose focus on what needs to be my goals.
I guess at this point, I'd like to hear from anyone who has been through the eye injections, anyone who could suggest a good therapist (experienced with diabetes, or better yet a diabetic themself) that maybe does online sessions, or from anyone who has any suggestions to get and keep me in gear to get this done.