I am very recently diagnosed, 11/09, although I had multiple symptoms for several weeks prior. One was significant vision change. July was my last full eye exam, and there was nothing abnormal, my vision had only changed slightly in two years. I got new glasses, and went happily on my way.
Then, about three weeks before I was diagnosed, my vision drastically changed. I couldn't see well enough to recognise someone across the room. I couldn't read the labels in the grocery store without picking them up. One day I was so frustrated, I just stopped in the middle of the aisle and cried.
I don't know what I was thinking, obviously I wasn't thinking clearly or I would have headed straight back to the eye doctor. But, I didn't. I kept thinking, "This will be gone tomorrow." It got so bad that I was afraid to drive without having someone else in the car.
Then at diagnosis, the doctor ordered me to go back to my eye doctor the next day. They couldn't fit me in, so I had to wait four days, my vision getting worse and stranger every day (faces on television kind of looked like they were melting). At the eye exam, I was told my vision was now twice as bad as it was in July. I was also diagnosed with diabetic cataracts, but the Dr. said we wouldn't talk about what to do about them until I got my BG under control.
Since I have worn contacts in the past, he gave me a pair to try out, and told me to get some reading glasses. I don't like wearing the contacts, although they do improve my vision drastically. The reading glasses are 250, and I don't like using them, as without my contacts, I can see to read just fine, it's only my mid/far vision that's gone bad.
Any advice? Similar situations? I have to go back to work tomorrow after having 5 days off after my diagnosis. I'm worried, as on the afternoon of my diagnosis, my boss called me in and gave me a poor evaluation(pre-diagnosis). I've NEVER had a poor evaluation. I was just so emotionally upset because of his myriad of negative comments, I couldn't stop crying.
My job is at stake. Later that evening, my vision was worse, I was constantly exhausted, I had a major yeast infection, I couldn't think clearly, was confused, very stressed. I had uncontrollable thirst, I panicked if I didn't have a water bottle in hand and five to spare nearby. With my job at stake, it finally kicked in that I needed to see a doctor. My doctor's office (multiple doctors), is open nightly until 8, so I got my mom (because I couldn't see to drive, especially at night), and went in. My BG was over 600, my A1C 9.5.
I knew nothing about diabetes. I was so confused, and mostly worried about my job. My BG is now averaging about 400 give or take, 500 once in a while, I'm eating properly (as far as I know), and am on Metformin. Tomorrow I have to go back to work. I haven't seen my boss since Tuesday night, when he lambasted me with my poor performance. He doesn't know about my diagnosis (no one does other than my immediate family and all of you). I'm wondering if the stress from that incident could have elevated myBG levels? I am so worried I can't sleep.
I don't know what to do about trying to explain all this to him. He is not sympathetic. He doesn't much like me. He's actually kind of hostile. In fact, I was written up a couple of weeks ago for "forgetting" to complete a task that he thinks was of very high importance, I differ with that. When I was written up I was in the throughs of untreated D, so exhausted that I actually fell asleep driving home a few times, and sideswiped a garbage can (no damage, but it scared me half to death). When I got home, I would collapse in the nearest chair and pass out for hours, waking up disoriented, thirsty, confused, and very worried.
When I look back at that time at work, it's kind of a blur. I can't remember things clearly. Please help me in dealing with him tomorrow. What should I tell him? I can't afford to lose my job now, and I don't want to be put on a performance improvement plan, I am putting so much into just doing my job now.
Sorry about the length, and I know this is rambling, but you guys are my only friends at the moment, and I need help. I don't have any coworkers/friends I connect with.
