Failing miserably

I’m failing miserably. At life and at diabetes. I’m really struggling…my blood sugar was 477 this morning and I’m going to the bathroom like every half hour. Which in a way makes me happy because I know I am losing weight.

I called up to the hospital where I was at to talk to the psychiatrist that I had when I was up there and she’s on vacation until next week. I don’t want to call my therapist because I don’t want him to think that I’m relying on him too much. I feel so alone right now. I don’t feel like I can talk to my dad because I know that he’ll be mad. I just don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m out of options right now.

I’m so tired and hopeless. I feel like this is the only place I can turn to right now. I know that’s kinda sad, but I don’t know what else to do.

Call your therapist. That’s his job. If he feels you’re relying too much on him, he’ll tell you. Don’t use that as an excuse not to have options or get help. Not sad to turn here for support, but we can’t guide you the way your therapist can.

Sweetie, having dangerously high BG is exhausting. Please, please take your insulin to get that high down. You can’t function like that & are dancing of the edge of DKA. Go to the ER.

take your insulin and talk to your dad or therapist. the important thing is you being well and safe. hiding a dangerous situation is not the way to go. GET HELP and take your insulin

Please call your therapist. That’s why you have him and it’s what he does! You need to get the bg down too. Take a step back breathe and try to recognize that high bg and depression go hand in hand. The bg will effect your thinking too. So a lot of your thoughts right now are likely glucose talking to your mind and not really what you would think or want if you were feeling better. So, take some insulin and start to drink a huge glass of water and try to center a bit. Breathe again and then dial your therapist.

Can we get an update please?

Hey Michelle - I’m thinking about you…You are not alone, you have me, and us. (now doesnt that sound like a hallmark card! jeesh!) I had a bad night too last night. A housefull of people and no one to relate to! Pretty freaky.

Email me anytime.

Your not alone. I know how you feel. My blood sugar has been running either real low or real high. You should be able to talk to your dad with out him getting mad. You cant help that your blood sugar is running high. I hope things get better for you. Just remember your not alone and you will never be alone.

Don’t feel hopeless, we all go through this all the time. Take some insulin and get that BG down, you will be ok believe me. I When I first was diagnosed I was way high and in DKA for days…please keep us posted! I have there in your same situation. August

Give your therapist a call. We all know that this is not easy. We wouldn’t even need tudiabetes if all of this was so easy.

Make the call and take your insulin. I have been exactly where you are and I can promise you there is a road that leads back. It will take time, but this can get better.

Make the call and let us know how things are going.

I had a really good day bm wise yesterday, I woke up yesterday morning and my BM was 20mmol/Ls - 400mg/dl. I decided that I was going to make sure my BMs were alright and conciously took enough bolus to bring me down, all day yesterday I was running around 10mmol/Ls - 180mg/dl, and physically I felt great.
Mentally though I felt like I was doing something wrong and had a few tears lastnight. But when I’ve woke up this morning I was kind of proud of myself. I plan to do the same today.

I’m not sure if you have looked into this but as well as my insulin to treat my diabetes I take Metformin, **NOT because I am insulin resistant but because my doctor at the clinic told me that if I took that it would help my insulin better and prevent it from turning straight into fat.

I know its hard at the moment, and everyone seems to think you can just take your insulin without hesitation, and they have no idea what its like to be in this situation. Maybe when wake up so high you can just take 1 or 2 units just to bring you down a touch and prevent DKA.
It’s a massive change but you have to start with tiny steps like that, please dont hesitate to inbox me i know exactly where your coming from.

First off you are not failing miserably and you are not alone. You are just in a rut and you need to get out of it for your own health and safety. I have been where you are right now, as I am sure everyone else on here has at one point or another. It is very frustrating going through what you are going through. Life in general is hard, and if you throw in some diabetes it gets really complicated! The good thing is that tomorrow you get to start new. I know you are feeling horrible and you might think that staying high will be good in some ways. It may be in some sadistic way for a short while, but you want better than that for yourself.

I can assure you that if you start making some positive choices you will start to feel better, loose weight and your sugars will come down. Sit down and evaluate why your sugars are high. Are you doing what you should be doing or have you fallen into a slump and let some bad habits slip in? Or is it something out of your control? Once you figure it out start working on changing what needs to be changed.

Like Brenda said “We wouldn’t even need tudiabetes if all of this was so easy.”

It is not easy, but it does not have to control your life either. Take charge girl. I hope things turn around for you :slight_smile:

“To succeed you must first improve, to improve you must first practice, to practice you must first learn, and to learn you must first fail.” --Wesley Woo